Father's Day

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Today was Todd's first official Father's day.  Last year we were just expecting Eleanna.  To say that the last year has had a lot of highs and lows is an understatement.

We spent today taking turns cuddling, feeding and changing the boys diapers.  Father's day has been a melancholy day for the last few years and it felt great to enjoy today.

To those that are still in the midst of infertility I can only imagine that you are not wanting to read another Mom's gushing post about Father's day.  Which honestly may even be harder than Mother's Day.    I know for me I prayed and prayed to give Todd Father's day.  Maybe even more than I wanted Mother's Day for me.  For those who are still waiting to celebrate.  You are already a parent, your heart already loves someone...it's just you haven't met yet.  Weather it's by a medical miracle, a surprise, an adoption, or even just a special child to finds their way into your life with out calling you Mommy or Daddy you are a parent.  

I'm so blessed to have a great man to raise my babies with he loves these little guys and our little angel in heaven so much.  It makes my heart expand every time I see him with them.

Parker

Jesse

Both boys have graduated to bassinets this week.  This means that they are able to keep warm on their own. (which means we have completed 2 of the 3 things they need to do to go home: 1. Breath with out assistance 2. Keep warm in their clothes 3. Gain weight while eating all feeds from a bottle or breast feeding.) They have been working on eating from bottles and breast feeding.  It's a slow process, but they are making progress.  Parker was able to drink 32ml and Jesse drank 30ml at their max so far.  Their total feeding is about 50ml so they are taking a good bit of it before they tucker out.  They have also been gaining tons of wight they are knocking on the door of 6lbs today at 5lbs 14oz...    

They still fit in a few few of their preemie clothes, but for the most part they are wearing new born clothes now.  They are also making more cute faces all the time.  They smerk and smile.  They also  usually open their eyes when I say hello in the morning to them.  I love it.

I have kind of gotten used to my daily/weekly routine, which helps makes the time that they are their easier.  I joke with the nurses that I should be on the pay roll.  Each morning I get up around 6 to pump. I shower, eat breakfast and head to RMH to see the boys.  If I have my stuff ready to go I get there about 9am.  They are eating every 3 hours and their feedings are at 9am, 12pm, 3pm...so, now that they are bottle feeding, or working on breast feeding I try to be there for 3-4 feedings each day.  I also change their diapers, take their temps, snuggle/hold them & give them baths.  It's amazing how fast the time goes.  Sometimes it seek out for an hour or so to do some shopping or have lunch not from the cafeteria.