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At this point I'm just and feeling down. I just don't feel like doing anything...I just feel like things are never going to change for us. I feel like maybe we should just get used to the way our life is and move on...but, as I am typing this it's making me cry, so I don't know...

Sunday I went to a water park with some friends and their 3 little boys 5,4 & 3. We had a very fun time and I was not sad all day. I had a great time and I loved it... Next week I will be going on a little vacation with my Brother, SIL and my niece. I'm sure that this will be a great time too.

My husband has been a coach for Jr. Tackle football (5th & 6th graders) for the last 15 years. He has now moved on to be the defense coach for the Jr. High team. I am excited for him, but I can't help but think of all the years I sat watching all his other games watching Mom's with babies in their strollers thinking next year this will be me...now that's never going to happen...

I just want this to be over one way or another...I'm so tired of waiting...

So little to say...

I don't have much to say right now. I had a wonderful Birthday spent with family and friends. My "big" gift was a Wii...I know seriously, how old am I? But, I do love it...I'm totally addicted to Mario brothers...

I have to say that I've been a bit down in the dumps...not because I turned the big 30, but because that's how it is with milestones these days. They all keep reminding me how long I have been waiting. At my party there was as many kids as there were adults...it can be so hard, but I am glad they were there...

I started reading the book eat, pray, love with the hopes that I finish it before the movie leaves the theater... So many things ring true in this book with how I feel myself...you know the whole feeling lost it this great big world...