What IF I hadn't had fertility issues?

I would have a 3 year old.

I would possibly be pregnant with #2.

I wouldn't be in church so much.

I wouldn't have my dog Holly.

I wouldn't have experienced Stampin' Up! Convention in 2008.

I wouldn't have made such great friends.

I would be having play dates instead of nights out with the hubby.

I may not have realized how perfect that my husband is for me.

I wouldn't have been there for others with infertility.

I wouldn't have read so many blogs.

I wouldn't have so many questions for GOD.

I wouldn't spend at least a little part of every day wondering if I will ever be a mother.

I'd be eligible to have cake at the local restaurant on Mother's Day.

I may not have cried so much.

I wouldn't be who I am today.

Book Sneeze Book...

I Just received my first book from Book Sneeze... I have to say that this is so much fun...

You sign up...get a FREE book....read it... and write a review on you blog...how fun is that?

My First selection is the book "Wild at Heart"by John Elredge and is more directed to the Christian man, but I am also finding it very enlightening...

Stay tuned for my complete review later this week or so.

Happy Monday!

Do you ever wonder or wish...

Milking "Bessie", 1900
It appears that this farm wife changed
into her "Sunday Best" clothes to have
this picture take.

Sometimes I really wish I had been born in another era...

Now I know that life was harder and mortality was shorter. But, I can't help but feel sometimes that I am in the wrong time frame. I have domestic skills taught to me by my parents that would go to much better use in a time gone by.

I can imagine my days starting with farm chores and making a hearty breakfast for my husband. We would go back to chores and daily tasks of washing, ironing, cleaning and such... I would make a lunch for our family and those helping... The evenings would be spent knitting, sewing and the like.

I'm sure that our IF would be harder too... So little was known about all of that...I would just be at church each week praying to God for a child...all the while thinking that I had done something to deserve this... All the while the town's folk talking behind our backs...saying it's such a shame...and then having unfortunate orphans given to us because we have the room...

Here in the present some may say it's a shame, no orphans have made it our doorstep and here we are 4 year into our loving marriage still praying to God for a child, Hope and Answers...

Now in these 4 years I have had some answers and still have Hope, but some days I still wonder are my hope futile? Are my dreams too big? Is the answer NO and am I just not hearing it...

A big week ahead...

I have to say that I'm meeting this coming week with a bit of apprehension...but, also a lot of joy and excitement too...

This week we will go in for our IUI at this point I'm feeling good about it...either way...

This week Todd turns the big 40...

This week is our 4th anniversary...

so maybe...this week I'll get pg and next year it just won't be the 2 of us celebrating all these things...