it's that time of year...

I wonder if anyone is reading this thing?

Oh well,

It that time of year...when every song you here seems to say...Merry Christmas for all...

Who have children that is...

So, many events of the season involve children and babies...why wouldn't it?

The very reason we celebrate the season is the miracle birth of our savior.

Yet, this holiday season I find my self once again praying that I may experience the miracle that is having a child of my own.

Then thoughts go to...am I being too selfish? Why can I not be fully grateful for everything that I have?

As I decorate the trees and bake the cookies I wonder if I will ever have homemade ornaments with little hand prints on them. Will I ever be able to roll out cookie dough at my kitchen counter with a little one on a stool beside me?

Now, I know that I & Me are not the reason for the season. I should expect no gifts from the Lord except the promise of eternal life. Why would I need more? Why do I want more may be the greater question. Why do I long so for something?... When at times it seems my destiny for it to never happen.

But, then I get reminded of hope. The Hope that I have that it will happen. I've seen this kind of thing go both ways...

Is it really supposed to go my way?