I'm not going to deny it... Christmas is not the most wonderful time of the year for me...
I love the baking, the gift giving, the card making, the time with family...
This year I wasn't going to put up a tree. We just hadn't gotten around to cutting one with the weather and Todd plowing snow. And, I just wasn't into it...
In the mean time...Todd sister said she'd like to come to our house for our family's Christmas... It was crunch time and I has to decorate... One good thing about waiting till the 18th of December to decorate...everything was 50% off. We got a nice "fake" tree...it's one of the skinny ones and it looks great. I also got 2 smaller trees for on top of our entertainment center. It all looks fun and festive. I'll be making prime rib on New Year's day for our "Christmas" we will be going sledding with our nephew... It should be another great time with family...
The above picture is of the same nativity that I have. I leave it up all year. It's on top of a hutch and it is not in the way, but it is a nice reminder of the greatest gift of Christmas. God love in the flesh... I would suppose that yuletide cheer pales in comparison. When I start to think about the whole reason for the season...it helps... What doesn't is all the talk of Christmas is just for the kids, etc...
As we start the new year Todd and I will be going through IVF treatments. Hopefully, it will only take one time. At this point I feel so blessed that we will be able to do it. I know first hand that even those who have insurance cannot afford the opportunity. We have had to make some big sacrifices to get to this point, cashing in vacation time, scrimping and saving, asking relatives, etc... Either way this works out...I'm at peace knowing that we did all we could. If the answer is no...we'll be sad, disappointed & frustrated, but at peace living as a family of 2. I know that adoption could be an option for us, but I'm just not feeling that it's where God is leading us. If it was I would be open to it, but until that point we're not.
Blessings for 2011!
